Good day!

Today is Wednesday. Should not be having any classes today, but replacement class for Commercial forced me to spend 5bucks for parking again, means I got class la. What the heck I was talking about. Sweat. Before class, I went Leisure Mall for movie. Met my friend there, we decided to watch different movie cause we think its too geli to watch a romantic movie together. She watched Breaking Dawn ; Me watch Cold War! Anyway I'm so satisfy with Coldwar till now! This is the movie that made me eyes feel so comfortable all the time, so many good looking! And quite ci gik, cause suddenly will have BOMB. -.- Watching movie alone is not as pathetic as you think. I enjoyed! :D

After that, bargain bargain! Speedy got sale! I bought a Japanese drama named The Boss, The Hero starred by Tomoya Nagase! My very first Jpop idol. Hahaha. Then bought Alan Kuo's 5 years ago's album! The album that I really loved it! I loved all 10songs by him! This album is really worth! Lastly, brain dah rosak I guess, I bought Kim Hyunjoong's this year album - Break Down. Haha, cheated,cause it has only 6 songs, two songs are the same just one in normal another in Instrumental version. Its okay. My mood very good after the movie!

After movie, Cds, lunch then head to college. Rain and thunder are distractions. Can't focus on 2nd part of tutorial. -.-
That's all! Too much fun things! Tired of pressing my phone, haha. Good night and November going to end real soon. :( Means my bestie gonna leave to Bangkok soon. =/

Life goes on cmy! And and and I'm so happy that I studied these two days! :) Nights!

Faces.

Nowadays society is too over reality. You can say anything if you're pretttaaayyyy, if you're ugly, just shut ur mouth up.

If I write more, the more I emo. So k gotta stop here. People, trust yourself! I don't know why this little issue influenced my mood, guess that I'm just a childish kid who suddenly found out one of the true faces of society, then I got a little bit sad and this is so pathetic.
Ok. Bye.

Another thing that bothers me alot, studies. I feel so energyless whenever I'm having class. Procrastination getting more serious. Procrastinate like a lou sai since year2 begins. I'm trying hard to focus. Damn it. I dislike today's me! Nights!

Tired again n again!

Stress. I'm tired! (I don't know how many zillion times I complain this!) I feel very tiny that I can't speak good English. Haih. I'm not good in speaking, I'm in 2nd year and I still speak like a noob. I'm getting smaller and smaller. T_T
I really feel small. Haih.
Heavy eyes. Good night.

Thoughts!

At this late night, I'm thinking a lot again. I'm actually suspecting someone dislikes me. I don't know what's happening, ehh tell la please -.-
Mr.Suresh back in action today! Feel so happy when I stepped into class and saw he's standing there start lecturing! Normally he will b teaching in JB and Singapore only! My energy are all back and I manage to pay full attention in that 2hours & 30mins lecture! Trust is one of the subject I'm blank with, but with his guidance, at least there's one topic is in my hands now. Weeee! Seriously, he should teach in Kl! I'm ok if its him teaches me all four subjects. -.- Bcause of his appearance during my first year revision class, I managed to get higher marks in contract. Hehehehhee. Bangga!

Anywayyyy... Its 1a.m. now,gotta sleep! Good luck to my sis who gonna face SPM tmr! Should be today! Best of luck! :D

Tomorrow my class till 8:30pm. Zzzz!

Miss kawan karibsss ku in Perak! Aih. Its been a long time never see them :( Hopefully can have a crazy... I mean happy gathering during deepavali. Hehehehe.

Sweet dreams people!

P/s: In case u miss me, I attached one silly photo of mine along this post! Haha. If you're moody, hopefully this will cheer u up! If you're mad, pls close my blog immediately, don't curse me. -.- Hey! My mouth can insert one cow already. Haha.

October.

I really abandoned this blog for a long time. 2nd year Degree started and I have no time to update my blog. I miss my A-level time a lot! I slacked around and just playing non-stop that time! After that proceed to first year Degree, I was really stress that time. Till I wanna give up. But then the good thing is I still manage to have fun n had random hang outs with my buddies. Now... oh sheet. I feel tired everyday after class, I don't have the mood to open my laptop to go online, I don't feel like having night shopping session with my sisters. I'm just like an old boring woman. I've been wondering for a long time, why my other friends are so freaking free and always ask for outing? Hahahha. I asked them but no exact answer. Is it my problem? Am I too draggy? Aish. Don't know la! Just feel super tired! Especially weekend classes and my Monday class sometimes till 9pm. #yeahWTH.

Zzzz. =/

The most hyper event happened on October was BigBang Alive Tour Concert! Damnnnn awesome! I was sick that day but I have the urge to join Bigbang and VIPs by buying last minute tickets! I wanna slap myself. Hahahhaa. But its all worth! Damn this concert was so freaking awesome! Till now my mind is full of Taeyang! Hmm I mean five of them. Teehee! I bought 188bucks ticket but I sneaked into 98bucks seats there. Cause that time started to rain n I prefer to sit at above watching them rather than standing there. My tixs were free standing one -.- Too much stories about this concert! Even if u ask me to tell u the whole story, I'm still hyper and energetic like a monkey! But then really thank god rain stopped in a sudden, like there's a miracle. Hahaha! There's hope! Do u see that? :P Maybe u will find me annoying like my sis cause I just can't stop talking like a parrot after the concert. But I can feel that my friend enjoyed my 'talk' a lot! And she can even shout with me along Petaling Street when I told her Taeyang was trying hard to tear off.his singlet! Hahahhahaa! The next day, the concert made me can't concentrate at all during class. Mainly, I was still in the hyper mood, second was I just busy telling them how awesome was it. Lolololololllll!
Really lazy to type much through phone. Update u guys next time! Oh yes! I saw MH that day xD !

Another annoying thing happened. It bothers me quite a long time and it comes again. About the gas inside my stomach. For one week. -.- I went to consult doctor last two days cause I can't even stand properly and vomit for few times already. The doctor said maybe there's bacteria inside and need to do a bloodtest asap. I told her I wil discuss with my sis. (I was driving alone out to clinic that time cause I really can't tahan!) I rest a while in her clinic then only back home. Okie, the climaks part... I paid 105bucks just for consultation and medication. I was so shocked as I'm just a little poor student :( You bloody pretty doctor, why.... T_T
Parents went overseas, don't even dare to tell them I'm not feeling well cause scared they'll worry about me. Sigh. Anyway I will be going to do a bloodtest tmr. I feel better today, Fai-na-li. -__-

Can't recall anything else, just bigbang and studies. I've no idea what's going on with my class and everything, I don't know what are they talking about. Am I retarded or what? Seriously I don't hv any single idea abt it except law of Tort. Kill me la. Essays every week somemore, haih.

Take care people! Bad weather! Bad bad weather! Wanna clear my mind and sleep early! Wow I did write a lot! My fingers are so tired now! And phone low batt! Ciao!

七夕!

哈哈哈,我说的是SE7EN。
收藏他的韩国专辑已有一年,今天终于拿出来用心地听全部歌曲,旋律真的很YG!也就是说很Big Bang还有2NE1。不愧是同一家公司。

I feel weird with my mandarin, haha. Anyway I'm still hoping Se7en will come to Malaysia!

Life.

Readers, I am back! (As if I'm a popular blogger that everyone waits for my new post). Sweat*

Back to the point.

Everything is settled 2 weeks ago, but still that insurance agency was very irresponsible, I hope our complains are workable. Seem settled, but mentally, I don't know. Even myself is still thinking about it, sometimes will get emo over it, so imagine his parents? He's his papa's son and best friend some more. My heart is still aching whenever think about it, even though its been happened for nearly a month.

Wonder how are you? I miss you. Everyone misses you. What should we do? :( Anyway, hope you're happy in another world and rest in peace. You live forever in our heart. :)

I really hope everyone can be strong, and love each other more. Yes, me, always the weakest, please be stronger cmy! People, you will never know when the people around you will be leaving, so please appreciate them! Ahh... this is life. =/

After that, back to college. Having class on weekends. Weekdays as well. I don't know why, but I like Year2 tutorial classes. Lesser students and can be more concentrate, can pick the lecturers that I prefer too. The only thing I dislike is, lectures on Sunday is too long, time got slower especially Sunday. I spent almost 8hours in college every Sunday. Hahahahahhahaha *tearing*

Had migraine on Wednesday. Unexpected, as usual. But this time really got a worse migraine compared with last time. I suffered for half day, I really thought I am dying that time. So helpless, half blinded and home has no people. My head gonna explode that time. The pain that you all can't imagine. I really hate myself of getting this migraine illness, I really hate me and hate it. But what to do! No one can cure! I am still consider as lucky one. The lucky thing is, all these 4years, it happened when I'm at home. Really lucky that I wasn't driving. Its still saddening... Whenever it happens, everyone starts worrying. I worried and worry too, cause I know that migraine can actually cause brain cancer or eyes can be blind. Especially me, having bad migraine. I did CT Scan for my brain few years back, everything is normal, but doctor was telling me that migraine is cureless, when it attacks, you can only consume panadols. Sigh. This month happened twice, I really worry my health now. So I decided to scan it again next week. Specialist gonna earn my money again. -.- So people, be grateful that you are all healthy and don't be too stress, take it easy! I am trying to relax all these days. Reading this might let you feel down or even pity me? Anyway, don't worry. =) I am still able jumping around! Okay, dance gangnam style also fine! ;)

I am now having lunch alone at Wendy's that nearby my home. Accidentally met one of the Year1 lecturers. He taught me thrice *i think* before, so it's normal he can't recognise me. I didn't notice him at first, I only saw a blind lady walking with a man, and then the man went to order food. When he sat down, and I could only able to look at his side face, I still cannot confirm whether that's my lecturer or not. He was taking good care of his wife, so soft, feeding her fries, get her tissues and all that, and I slightly can see his face, and I can confirmed he was my lecturer. Those scenes just happened right in front of me, they just sat in front of me, I don't know but I feel like crying. What a good man! And he's one of my favourite lecturers! I guess I can pass THAT subject because of his teaching. Yeah.. so, all the best to them, and I hope his wife will get well soon, I hope that was just temporarily blind. So sweet, really.

I hope my sis able to be back and have dinner with me tonight, I don't wanna solo again. =( I'm a little afraid of being alone nowadays. Sigh.

Hahhaha, there's a korean family, and the elder bro fighting with younger bro, and that fatty younger bro cried. Elder bro is actually same age with me? or younger than me 2 or 3 years. Hahahaha I am tahan-ing my laughes here, all alone. (sounds lonely -.-)

Have a nice day people! Happy Friday! :D

Unreal.

Everything is so unreal. I thought this will only happen in drama. Drama equal life, life equal drama. Chinamen are right. Always right indeed. My mind is all blank these two days, I guess it will continue to be blank for whole week. People coming and start crying when I open the door for them, this happen and happen again. Couldn't sleep well these days, I believe everyone the same.
Hardly to smile these days. Too unreal, till now I still cannot accept it. My heart aches after listen that and more ache when looking at my aunty uncle and my grandpa. What to do what to do. What to do. What should I do? Everyone is busy, too many procedures and regulations wanna follow. For this time, I hate weekends a lot.Everyone is damn busy, while I stay at home stay beside my sis and my grandpa. I am now the eldest at home, but I feel scared, I feel I am useless. Life is so unpredictable. I cannot stop asking why why why, and WHY! Too many family challenges after my mahmah gone. Talk about mahmah, I miss her a lot. Though its already four years, the feeling is still there, I can remember her smile and smell of the powder that she always put on herself. All the memories are still clearly on my mind.
I feel so tired. Only can wait for you to come back so maybe I can only accept the truth. I hope all these are dreams, slap me, I wanna awake from this nightmare. Slap me hardly.... My brain never stop functioning these days. Coincidentally, many buddies asking me out this week, I am really sorry that I can't make it. I don't wanna explain. I bet they must start to think more to negative sides. Ok, human nature, if me, maybe I will think so too? Too happening and saddening. Headache. I wanna stop writing this, I don't wanna let my grandpa aware of my sad face again.

Windy day. 2nd of Sept., 2012.

Miss you.

Outcome.

The outcome was good. Unexpected. Again and again, I am lazy to use words to describe how I feel. Mixed feeling. My friends can't get through the barrier and my gang got smaller. The friends who we used to have study group and travel together. Sigh. The class for year2 is confirm much smaller. All these are not the main influences in my study life, but the human being who gonna be with me for the next one year. You will feel I'm selfish for sure, but I'm not comfortable with them. Hahaha. Maybe many people dislike me secretly? Who knows right! When I mentioned this point, will you suspect you yourself? Lol. Well, I know my family hopes that I continue what I'm doing these years especially my parents. Checked my results, it was not as sucky as I thought. I swear I can't remember what I wrote and I just knew that I wrote...err... shit on that 3 hours! 4 papers means 12 hours! Still remember each time finish each paper, I don't let myself cry till I reach home. How torturing! Finally its all ended. The burden that I carried since the beginning of my exam till the result day...finally gone! I'm now officially a law student? I told myself that able to finish first year only can 'announce' or call myself a law student. Ha. (Ah so bangga. lol.)
My heart being so strong these days. Tried to be honest to myself and listen to my heart, actually... I dislike the subject or wholly environment there? Haaaaahaaaaaa. *jump!* Anyway all the best to my friends. You can do it! :) you guys are the best!
I'm tired. Haha, still remember I did researches about other courses and ready to be a part of UTARians. Still thinking switching to a new environment. Hobby or future?
Last question, I am too lucky or what?  Or I really that smart? ahhh ignore me!
 

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