wooooooo !

The moment that i waited for a long long LONG LONG time...
yay...exam ended!

9 days exam...who can tahan lar wei. damn suffer these days!
Before the exam, should i say much thing happened?

I went to hospital for CT SCan. (yea.brain scanning) and costed my dad rm380++.
After knew something, i realize that everyone is so care about me. I mean it.
They r trying to solve my problems. And figure out this and that.
I appreciate what have u guys done. REALLY!

Love u all~ and im quite enjoy my life here~ (i moved to grandpa's house =)

I am speechless..dunno what to say. Just feel EXCITED : EXAM FINISHED!!!
yay! i just can't wait to hang out with friendsssss!

Oh..i feel i wanna go for jungle tracking eh ;)
Call me anytime for cheong-K, yum-cha or whateva~

=) this is big test...i dun think i can get good result. but then...i PHEW-ed~ cause it all ENDED!

weeeeeeeee!

olympics druggs!

I was so darn busy till I forgot how’s my blog now. LOL.

Leo Club ; Olympics! ; cleaning my stuffs?! ; hanging out with family and friends? ; and bla~
Early in the morning now, ayam dah berkokok, I know its time to update my blog.
I was so addicted to my Olympics these days. But…now, no lar, stop already. Liu Xiang got injured =( I stopped and switched to watch others. No only because Liu Xiang okie, all my favs finished.

Anyway, lets get started ;)

LEE CHONG WEI. DA HEROOO.

I was so glad that Lee Chong Wei got SILVER medal for us. Stop blame-ing him! He already done his best! Those ppl who said he played like SHIT that day, why don’t u join in a small competition in ur school and see how’s ur standard?! LCW is World No.2 =) I think he will beat Lin Dan another day. Just another day. Ahahaha. LCW bakal menerima gelaran Dato’ daahahhahaha! 26-year-old got Dato =) Not bad not bad.

Mr.Liu Xiang

Hmm. Kinda disappointed. Honestly, I’ve been waited to watch him again. And I waited him for 4 years. Duhh. I never lie okie winks* That day I watched it LIVE in Florex Restaurant while having lunch with my mom. It was kinda blur and I gotto watched it FAR AWAY though there was showing by a thingy…LOL,I forgot what it called,school used it That’s why I feel the way he walked was freaking weird! Until he RUN slowly and looked at his expression, I can predict what the h*ll is happened. While he walking out formt here, everyone was looking at him. Some of them were cried a lot,their face full of tears. Urgh. Im definitely sad sad sad sad. Nvm. More 4 years. LONDON =) Rest more Xianggg!
Its better if he quit from the competition. 医学教授：刘翔退赛是保护 没有特效药复发率高 (credit: Sohu)

“我相信刘翔能跑到2012年伦敦奥运会。”孙海平肯定地说。HAHAHA. Great!

万众瞩目的“鸟巢”迎来中国飞人刘翔的登场，令人遗憾的事情发生了刘翔意外退赛.
I watched it LIVE through TV :(

Those reporters. Uhmm :’(

I bet that THIS FELLA must very happy now. Ish! Blackiesh! Watch out!!
Like a MOO MOO face!
刘翔退赛后，古巴名将罗伯斯毫无疑问拿下了110米栏的金牌。看看他超“牛”的表情，没有了刘翔的赛场仿佛成了他一个人的舞台。(credit: SOHU =)

U will break the RECORD again and get GOLD medal while in London! 2012!

The Robinhood - CHENG!!!


Ok, Malaysia still Boleh.

Cheng Chu Sian =) (Malaysia’s Robinhood. daaahahaha) :P

He got into top8! Yaysss!

See his perfect SHOOT. Final shooooooot! ;)

Blogging is good and GREAT. But...i have to take almost an hour to updat this post.
I am slow or what? whatva~
haha. Have a cool holiday!

我不知所措……就这样留下了眼泪，我不够坚强，我斗不过压力……
很没有用....以前的我，是不会这样的。

我变了，我变了。
变得更软弱、脆弱了……
我越来越怀疑自己的领导能力，当我刚刚有了信心，突然又有东西来攻击我，我又倒了……
眼泪，天天含在眼里，又有谁知道？
我讨厌我自己，做得不比别人好！当我真的很想为团体出一份力时，发觉好像一个人在撑着，其他的好像路人甲……我试着再拉回他们进来，怎么知道，大家还是一样。
不想付出，懒得付出，演员只有我一个。

我很怪。不开心，不喜欢别人和我讲话。谁和我说话，也会中招被我骂。
我就是喜欢冷静一个人思考。
偏偏……我想的……都不会是个好结果。不善于表达，喜欢闷在心里。

我也不是在complain着什么，只是觉得...只有一个人在做东西时，那一个人会觉得很累很累。
我很愿意为大家做东西，只是你们可不可以迁就一下？
你们觉得那些都是在浪费时间，那……我每次都报到，那又代表什么？
我的就不是时间？或者我真的有的是时间？或者你们觉得是我的责任？

如果你们觉得其中一个，我无话可说。

11/7/2008

YES. I am really should be happy. Leo Club organized a talk and we invite Tan Chia Yong, from 8TV. I never ever expect there's lots of people attend the talk! i was WOW. GOSH. Its great to have a such a GREAT report to send to Lion Alan soon. MUAHAHAHA.
It really SHOCKED me man...there's 270++ attended!!! FOOO~~ WOOO~~ YAAYY!!!
hehehhe. But i think the whole ceramah spoilt by my welcome speech? urgh. blame myself lar, never get ready and sweat a lot, run here run there, then suddenly its my turn to deliver the speech! I never read d speech before, never tried the mic before too! And...i went up the stage with my messy hair n reddish face. god~!!!

Photos will be coming very soon=)

I really want to thank HUI YEE and FAN YOU to entertaint us that day! hey hey, there got most popular singing group in school o~ THEY GOT FANS!!!! i never lie! they ROCK!!!!
I LOVE THEM =)
And surely our school most famous boys group - Mr. Lemonssss!
uhuhhuhuu!! Lemon Boys! *thumbs upp!*
And most important, is my MOMMY. thanks a lot, my dear chilie padi~
I LOVE YOU :) and congrats my dear!

I wonder what the h*ll made me so suffer n sad. LOL. mayb i should say dissapointed?
Or im too stressful?! gosh.
These affect my mood everyday. sigh. trying to make my EQ standard higher!
ahahaha =P
jie will help me, i knew it :-P
la~la~la~
Its very late at nite now. Ciaoz guys~!
:D

peekeboo-shitty

I felt that I want to stop everything.
Acted like nothing happened.
Its damn weird if its keep moving on.
I just cant believe in you.
I am damn enjoy my days at school these days. With friends. Talk or BLA BLA BLA a lots at skul. And my new place to lepak these days : LIBRARY =) Gosh. my place to release all the STRESS! And...i can LAUGH LOUDLY there. My friend told me. When i be with u, i really can LAUGHed a lots. ahahahahha xD
I knew I knew. I knew i am important for u guys' LIFEee! =P

Stress, Can i just please stop all those projects? and leave me alone, n jump here jump there like an idiot or CLOWN? Stop asking me those anything about the clubbing! I wanna stay at home, n be alone. I hate going out now. Its hard to let me hang out with my friends! how SH*T.
Board a bus, spend my time in the bus, look at the people in the bus. Experience the WIND in the bus.
Reach the place, say HELLO or HI, start meeting, and spent 3 or 4 hours there.
Honestly, my EQ gets more LOWER since in the president of that club.
I am not a good ones. Please choose another one!
If i stop now, mayb its too irresponsible action. But...i already do my best. Stop asking me or telling me about those STRESSFUL ISH-FUL GRR-FUL stuffs to me while im OUT or enjoying my life with my friends!
I am trying my best...doing my BEST!!!!!

My shitful life here. GOD, GIMME A SIGN!

pressure

Woah. I never knew that being a leader such a hard thing! Mayb im not the one who is suitable to be a leader, or GOD wants to train me?

Ahha.
I am so darn busy with my studies & school activities, clubbing too! Organising a camp, having a major project, speak louder n clearer, be active & bla! Its what a leader should have!
Suddenly everything come true to my mind, I can manage it. Everything for me just so suffer. Next Saturday is Parents' Day at school. I am so worry how's my parents react when they knew my result! I had been promised them I need to get good result and go back to the first class.
Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

I felt I wanna cry, but i told myself to be tough. Everything doesn't goes smoothly, i think this is what we called- LIFE. I think i need to oevercome all these FEARs and SCAREDs and for surely, PRESSUREs. And really thanks to the friend who always ready to listen to ME.
Thank you very much. I really do feel better when i told u guys all these things.
Ohya. The feeling that wanna go to find a counsellor teacher was GONE =)

Just hope i can do better now.

Smiles!

:)

im in love....

I mean I AM IN LOVE with this super CRAZY gang.
keep rocking! MUAHAHAHHAHAA!!!
We all totally looked DRUNK, but actually we were not.
We just drank CHINESE TEA WITHOUT ANY ALCOHOL.
=)
1st June, 2008.

suddenly...

After my Chemistry tuition today,i decided to go to KFC with my friends ot have my breakfast.
I chat a lot with my good friend, she's really a great friend, what can i say, she is very understanding. I listened to her stories, quite touched. haha.
Suddenly she talked about her grandma, I can knew how happy n how GREAT her smile when she talked about it. I knew she loves her, and her grandma loves her much too.
What to do,i can't control myself n talked about my mah mah too.

I still remembered how cute is my dearest mah mah. She will shout at the tv when she knew a KILLER putting some 'toxic' into an actor's cup, she keep asking the actor not to drink it.
Finally, the actor was not drink it. Haha. I felt so funny and how can an elegant lady so cute like this!

Sddenly,i really miss my mah mah. I cried alone. I cried, i cried, tears rolling down...
My family members all went out.

I cannot control my tears.

Actually I blame myself that im not always beside u when u're sick. I felt so sorry. I knew u love us. I really do! How can i complainso much when mom said we need to go to ur house. I wish to see u sit in the living room and watch tv with us, having breakfast with us, go n shopping with us, went to morning market with u, dance or sing for u.

I remembered u asked me don't be too sad when i only got 2As in PMR. That time i was so shame n dun dare to face anyone. Thanks for all the loves n encouragement in my life. Sometimes i felt like missing something when u're not here anymore. I miss u when i looked at ur photo in yeh yeh's home. U really look pretty n nice.

I remembered that nite u're very very tired, i called u so much times u opened ur eyes for a while n say ERM? Then u close ur eyes again. I was so worried that time. I wish i can RUN into KFC n get some mashed potato for u. Since u said u feel u want to have some.

My tears rolling down again. I really miss u. I really miss u.
I MISS U.

Please don't worry about me, ok? I will study hard n enter a great Uni. U told me before right?
I will nvr forgot what u told me. We will always go to yeh yeh's place to accompany him. no worries =)

I love you.
mah mah, rest in peace.

complicated.

I miss her.

I wanna hug her more.
I wanna KISS her more.
I want her to stay beside us.


Unfortunately, she can't stay longer time. It already pass a week.
I will miss her, and i won't forget how she looks like.
She is always the elegant n pretty lady in my heart.

I love u, grandma.